Jessie

(Please Excuse the Typical White Girl Names haha)
So last year I had this friend group and for privacy I'll just change their names. My best friend in the group's name was Jessie. The other two girls in the group were Ashley and Caroline. Well Ashley and Caroline didn't like Jessie and to be honest I was starting to get that way too. At the same time this was happening, we were starting to not like Ashley because she kept claiming we were her best friends but she would always choose these other people over us and only ever talked about her own problems.

The only reason Jessie was still in our friend group was because she was my best friend that I told everything to. But after some thinking I decided that her and me shouldn't be friends anymore because I didn't like how she made me feel like my opinions didn't matter and she had lied to me and Ashley about something major regarding Caroline. So she said she understood and so it was just me, Ashley, and Caroline left in the group.

Well Ashley got into some big trouble with her mom so she stopped going to our school and started going to another school in the county. Before she left though, she had gone through a relationship with Caroline. They broke up because it turned out Ashley didn't actually like Caroline but was just experimenting to see if she was bisexual. Caroline thought Ashley loved her but it just turned out to be a bunch of bs.

So now it's just me and Caroline in the friend "group". Sometimes I miss Jessie. Sometimes I make a joke to Caroline that I think is really funny but she doesn't laugh and I'll think back to when I was friends with Jessie and how she would have laughed her ass off. But I can't be friends with her anymore because for like 2 months straight I talked about how I was so glad we weren't friends anymore. But now I miss her. I regret everything. It's not that I don't like Caroline or anything, I love her, she's my best friend. But I just really miss Jessie. I miss sending her memes and laughing about random stuff that other people wouldn't find funny. I miss talking about life with her. But whatever is meant to happen will happen and I shouldn't worry. :)

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