School Life

(Please Excuse the Typical White Girl Names haha) So last year I had this friend group and for privacy I'll just change their names. My best friend in the group's name was Jessie. The other two girls in the group were Ashley and Caroline. Well Ashley and Caroline didn't like Jessie and to be honest I was starting to get that way too. At the same time this was happening, we were starting to not like Ashley because she kept claiming we were her best friends but she would always choose these other people over us and only ever talked about her own problems. The only reason Jessie was still in our friend group was because she was my best friend that I told everything to. But after some thinking I decided that her and me shouldn't be friends anymore because I didn't like how she made me feel like my opinions didn't matter and she had lied to me and Ashley about something major regarding Caroline. So she said she understood and so it was just me, Ashley, and Caroline l

 Don't you just hate it when you're in 10th grade but theres this guy you like that's a senior and he's gonna be going off to college soon, so it's really not worth talking to him if it's just gonna be for a few months and then heart break. BUT AT THE SAME TIME he's really smart, cute in his own way, considerate, and REALLY funny. I really hope this crush goes away soon because I'm on my period and I'm hoping this is just the hormones.

 Why are people always asking me "What kind of music do you listen to?" THAT ANSWER ISN'T THAT SIMPLE AND IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS! My dad is 60 years old so naturally my brother and I grew up listening to Led Zeppelin, Rush, The Cars, The Beatles, and so on. Don't get me wrong I absolutely love that music. But I love today's music too. Although the majority of the music I listen to isn't mainstream. I listen to Cage the Elephant, Lil Rxspy, The neighbourhood, Weezer, IAMJakeHill, The Weeknd, and Lana Del Ray. As you can tell I don't exactly listen to one type of music. But if I don't feel like having this conversation I'll just say rock to the person asking.

 What to talk about hmmmmm.... well this has been on my mind lately: People always assume it's great to be the smart kid. Let me tell you, it most definitely is not. All the teachers and adults expect crap from you. They expect you to do great things with your life. They expect you to have your shit together. They expect you to always understand everything. Well I'm in the tenth grade - which if you're an adult you're like "pshhh they're just 16 years old, they have their whole life ahead of them, they don't have any real problems" - well it's scary to think that just in two short years, I'm gonna be going off to college AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA MAJOR IN BUT EVERYONE EXPECTS ME TO GO. I know what you're thinking "Well what are you good at?" I know I'll sound really snobby when I answer this question but I'M GOOD AT EVERYTHING. "Well what are you interested in?" I DON'T KNOW, I'M JUST S