School Life

You know I've had crushes before but this one felt different. I could picture myself spending the rest of my life laughing with him. But no... he found someone else. And when I found out, I had this overwhelming feeling of sadness. Of rage. Of guilt. And uselessness. At first I thought this is just depression. But no, regular depression is somehow better than what I was feeling. With regular depression, you usually just feel empty. I wished I just felt empty. But instead it was like I was constantly having a panick attack and couldn't breathe. I felt like something significant in my life was missing and I needed to fix it. I felt like crying every time I saw something that reminded me of him. I cried because of an energy drink. I cried because of sun chips. I cried because of a deer I saw in the woods. I cried because of a pair of boots. I'm even crying now. Every morning when I woke up, for a split second I had forgotten everything bad and I was happy. But then I remembere

Sorry I haven't posted lately... even though literally no one reads these post and I really just do this as a diary for myself. So to catch up, I have recently become vice-president of TSA which the Technology Student Association. Not to be confused with the security at the airport. My engineering teacher has also asked me to join HOSA again this year, which I said yes to even though I kind of hate it. Although, I did get to pick my own group this time. But anyway that's besides the point. So for the past month or two, I had been working on getting closer to Bill... and it's been working. I finally felt like we actually might be more than friends pretty soon. That was until my friends told me something tragic. APPARENTLY, THIS ONE BITCH IS PROBABLY DATING BILL. HOW I DID NOT HEAR ABOUT THIS ASTOUNDS ME. So after all this time he was actually getting closer to this band fuck. Sorry ìf that offends anybody but I'm just upset right now and I'm placing my anger in the w