This Guy (Part 1)

If you've read my other posts, you'd know I get attached to guys easily. Well there's this one guy that I always seem to fall back on. In the beginning of tenth grade I really and truly only saw him as my best friend. But our teacher kept assuming that we were dating and we never really said anything about it so finally it got me thinking, "do I like him?" I tried denying it for a little bit. But in the end he had a girlfriend and it wasn't healthy for me to have a crush on him but that thinking didn't help me any so I continue to like him. Well one day he's talking to some kid and happens to be standing by my locker and so I say "what's up" and he says "nothing much". Then whoever he was talking to leaves and he waits on me. At the time I just assumed it was because we had the same next class. But on the way he makes a racist joke towards our chinese friend and I laugh at it and say "thats the funniest thing all year" and he says "nah the funniest thing that happened this year was thinking someone loved me for two years and ending up saying they dont". I had no idea what to say so i said the only thing I knew to say, "sounds fun". WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!? WHY DID I SAY THAT?!  JESUS CHRIST, I COULDNT HAVE SAID "Sorry man, she doesnt deserve you, youre a really great guy" but no I say some dumb shit and now I regret it and have cried myself to sleep everyday for almost a year now. You know why I never said anything about it again to him. Because with in a week he starts talking to Jessie from my other stories.

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