Boyfriends and Hormones

 So to set the scene I'll give you some background information. This past school year, I was determined to be more outgoing. I'm typically the shy smart kid that gets really annoyed with other people. Its exhausting af talking to people so I just don't. But this year was different. I was going to try and talk to people and make friends. So by October I was successful. I had made plenty of new friends and I was more outgoing than I could have imagined. You see, during quarantine I had plenty of time to work on myself and by the end of it I was like "EVERYONE SHOULD BE FRIENDS WITH ME, I HAVE A NICE ASS PERSONALITY AND IM FUNNY AS HELL". So I go to school and I talk to everyone in all my classes. Except 8th period. I'm not sure why I didn't talk to more people in there. I guess it was bc all the kids in there were upperclassmen and theres something intimidating about them. I know they're just a year or two older but that shit matters when you're a kid. A lot of maturing goes on in that time period and a lot of false maturing goes on as well. So I had two friends in that class. One girl... sorry, one boy (she prefers to be called a boy but it's not well known since her parents are jesus freaks) is in there. I'm not totally friends with him but I'm friends with the people he hangs out with so I'm fairly confident we'd hit it off as well. And then theres another guy. His name is.... we'll call him Jim. Jim is one of my closer friends since we have about 4 classes with him. But I never talked to either of them because I guess it was the end of the day and I have no more energy to pretend to care about what people say.

Oh and some more background information, whenever I'm on my period I guess I get really hormonal and the first guy that's nice to me, I'll have a crush on them for a about 2 weeks. It gets really annoying af but it just happens so I just deal with it.

So anyway one day I'm just chillin in 8th period, and Jim texts me on snapchat. I figure he's just bored and trying to make conversation but what I don't understand is why didnt he just talk to me in person. He sits like 5 feet away from me. But I didnt really give a fuck enough to ask. So we keep a steady conversation going. and over the next few days he talks to me consistently and is being really sweet. And of course I just had to be on my period. So my brain thinks I'm in love with the dude so one night I'm just like "I'm pretty sure you like me and I like you too but my parents don't allow me to date but I still want to if that's ok with you". You see my mom is from mexico and shes catholic. So shes not ok with me talking to boys. And so Jim, says that he does want to date. So we date for a about two weeks.

Let me tell you why it was this short. MY GOD DAMN PERIOD HORMONES WORE OFF QUICKLY. After day 2, I was completely over Jim. In fact I was starting to resent him. He kept talking about how he was going to follow me to college and shit and how he was going to love me forever. And I'm like BRUH WE JUST STARTED DATING HOLD TF UP. But yeah I guess the part I was most pissed about  was every time I tried to have a normal conversation he would interrupt and tell me he loved me. YEAH I DON'T WANT TO BE UNGRATEFUL OR ANYTHING BUT CAN I PLEASE JUST HAVE ONE CONVERSATION WITH YOU. And then at school, he never talked to me or anything, I tried to make conversation and his response to everything I said was always "yeah". LIKE WTF. So anyway I just started being a shitty girlfriend back and within 2 weeks he broke up with me. I swear it was like a weight had been lifted.

I mean the dude deserved to be happy. I just didn't want to break up with him because I felt like he would be sad and never talk to me again, but if he broke up with me, we would be ok.

So another 2 weeks goes by and he asks me out again and takes back everything he said when he broke up with me. And I'm thinking "I'm not getting into this again" and I say "Oh" and then leave him on delivered for his remaining text messages. Which there were a lot in the following months. But to be fair I think towards the end of it all, he was just messing with me bc he and his cousin thought it was funny.

But anyway he's doing great now, he's got a new girlfriend. One that appreciates him, I might add. The only thing I find a little strange is shes still in 8th grade and we're going in 11th. Soooooo a little weird but I think they can make it work :).