School Life

 So I've been thinking about what could have happened between Bill and Jessie. I was assuming that Jessie broke up with Bill. BUT. I think I've had it all wrong. I think what most likely happened was Bill broke up with Jessie. Now I can't just go around making false claims without any backup evidence, right? So. Here is why I think Bill broke up Jessie. Whenever I was still friends with Jessie, she would date this one guy. Let's call him... Jay. Well every time Jay would break up with Jessie, she would find some other guy to make him jealous. This is the same way she has found a new guy to replace Bill now. Another reason is when I stopped being friends with her, she unadded me on snapchat first even though I wasn't going to. Well she unfollowed Bill on Instagram but Bill still follows her. Another reason, Bill deleted the post with her in it but she still has hers on her page. So what I think happened is he got sick of her shit and broke up with her. She got pissed...

So I've been thinking lately and I think I might want to be a software developer or computer programmer. I really like coding. I want to do something with technology. I love math. And most importantly I wouldn't have to talk to people on the daily. Talking to people is honestly tiring and frustrating. I can do it just fine, it just wears me down. So yeah my dream colleges would be Vanderbilt, Georgia Tech, or like Univesity of Florida, or something like that. And also, I won't admit this to anybody, but I really want to work for SpaceX. I would just really like to think apart of putting someone on Mars. And before you ask, I had a 98 in my AP physics class (the teacher said that's that's highest score he's ever had for that class) so ha.

So today I didn't go to school because my uncle died and I had to go to his funeral. I like to think of everyone at school as my people in my kingdom... more like I'm a dictator and I keep everyone in place. Yeah, I know what you're thinking "what the fuck, this girl is manipulative". Well to be honest every girl is manipulative whether you know it or not, they most definitely are. Only difference is, I'm open about it. BUT ANYWAY. So even though I don't want to admit it, I have feelings for Bill. Well today my friend Caroline sends me a snap of Bill and Jessie walking to lunch together. WHAT. THE. HELL. IM GONE FOR ONE DAY AND THEY'RE ACTING ALL BUDDY BUDDY AGAIN. I know I shouldn't be pissed. I'm just mad that I've been waiting for what seemed like forever for them to break up, but now they're being friends. What worries me the most is that the new guy Jessie is dating might be just a ploy to get Bill back together with her. Their rel...

So this girl and I are always competing for first in our class. She's the type of girl to get whatever she wants. To be quite frank, I'm not all that sure why. She's not rich and her family went bankrupt a few years back. She's a jerk to everyone and thinks she can get away with anything. Well as of a year ago, people started realizing this and hate her now. So yesterday, everyone in my history class starts talking about how smart I am and them they tell me I how they hope I get valedictorian. Idk it just really made my day. What really gets me is the fact that this has happened to me twice now. Where my class says they hate her and like me. Haha payback's a a bitch.

So over the course of Jessie and Bill dating, Bill started to be a complete jerk to me. And honeslty im just hanging on to see how this rides out. So now it's summer time. I get haven't bothered talking to Bill all summer bc I am not getting some rude ass text from Jessie and I do not want to deal with that bs. So I get this random ass text from Bill... "Do you like Me?"  and I say "no, I'm not really into guys who are constantly jerks to me" and he says "is that the only reason" and I say "well I mean if you really want me to name off every reason I don't like you like that, I very well can". Idk at that point I was tired off all the games and tbh I assumed it was really Jessie texting me. But to my surprise it was not. The next day Ashley texts me and basically tells me that last night Bill randomly asked Jessie if she thinks I liked him. SOOOOOO IM NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANS BUT HE WAS THINKING ABOUT ME. Any way so now summer is ...

So him (for the remainder of the story I'll call him Bill) and Jessie are dating right. Well I start to learn quickly, Jessie is an extremely jealous person. Everyday she accused Bill of cheating and comparing him to her ex. So every single day, every single minute he's just constantly trying to explain to her that he loves her and all this shit. Well she doesn't care for it. She accuses me, my friend who happens to be from Italy, and a few other girls in my class of flirting with him. So one day im texting Ashley. (Ashley and Jessie are in the same class and some what friends). I had just given Bill 50 dollars for a deal I made with him. Apparently word travels quickly because within a minute, Ashley is texting me, " I heard you paid Bill 50 dollars". And im like "yeah haha howd you know, tha5 was like a mintute or two ago" well her next text is kinda sus. She doesnt answer my question and she starts talking like how jessie used to talk to me. So i know...

If you've read my other posts, you'd know I get attached to guys easily. Well there's this one guy that I always seem to fall back on. In the beginning of tenth grade I really and truly only saw him as my best friend. But our teacher kept assuming that we were dating and we never really said anything about it so finally it got me thinking, "do I like him?" I tried denying it for a little bit. But in the end he had a girlfriend and it wasn't healthy for me to have a crush on him but that thinking didn't help me any so I continue to like him. Well one day he's talking to some kid and happens to be standing by my locker and so I say "what's up" and he says "nothing much". Then whoever he was talking to leaves and he waits on me. At the time I just assumed it was because we had the same next class. But on the way he makes a racist joke towards our chinese friend and I laugh at it and say "thats the funniest thing all year"...

JESSIE. I stg I hate her again. She works at taco bell now. So my dad went to pick my mom up some food and made light conversation with her. WELLLLL.... this mf decides to text me on Instagram and say that her and my dad talked quite a bit. Well I ask my dad about it and no such thing happened. The most he said was "Can I get a chalupa". Well I decide to be nice to her and make small talk and then just ended up liking her message to end the conversation. Well the next day she texts me again and says some guys are following her. No tf they're not. If they were, you'd call the mf police not someone who hasn't talked to you in almost 2 years. But whatever:)