School Life

So today in engineering, I was sitting at my computer near these big tables and "xander", "robert", and "bill" were standing at the big tables talking and occasionally they'll say something funny that me and "gordan" will laugh at, and then xander all the sudden goes "I feel like bill and [My Name] would end up getting married" and I just pretended like I didn't hear it. But Bill didn't say a word like he didnt deny nor confirm anything, he just stood there. And Gordan and Robert are like "HAHAHAHA YEAH" and they're just all laughing while neither of us say a thing. I'm not sure what or if it means anything but I thought it was an interesting moment. I mean if he for sure didn't like me he would have said it right??

So he sent his streaks on snapchat and HE WAS WITH JESSIE IN HIS CAR!  I just I can't with these morons.

So I thought we were getting along great. We sat next to each other voluntarily 2 or 3 times but yesterday this cunt pissed me off so bad. We have this class together called D.E. or Digital Electronics. Well he finished breadboarding before I did because I just cant figure out what's wrong with mine. So yesterday I text him and say "*cough* you should like help me on Thursday with my board" and he said no. So I say "c'mon just for like 5 mintues pleaseee" and he says no. And I say "why nottt" and THIS MF JUST LEAVES ME ON OPEN. Now I usually would get mad about this. I mean if he doesn't want to help me that's fine. BUT I HELPED HIM SO MUCH LAST YEAR. WE MADE ELEVATORS AND HIS WOULDN'T GO UP, SO I TOOK THE LIBERTY OF COPYING MY CODE FILE ONTO MY FLASHDRIVE AND PUT IT ON HIS COMPUTER. AND SO HE TOOK MY CODE AND CHANGED IT A LITTLE TO MAKE SEEM MORE LIKE HIS, AND HE SOMEHOW FUCKED IT UP AGAIN. SO I TOLD HIM WHAT HE DID WRONG. I HELPED HIM...

 So I've been thinking about what could have happened between Bill and Jessie. I was assuming that Jessie broke up with Bill. BUT. I think I've had it all wrong. I think what most likely happened was Bill broke up with Jessie. Now I can't just go around making false claims without any backup evidence, right? So. Here is why I think Bill broke up Jessie. Whenever I was still friends with Jessie, she would date this one guy. Let's call him... Jay. Well every time Jay would break up with Jessie, she would find some other guy to make him jealous. This is the same way she has found a new guy to replace Bill now. Another reason is when I stopped being friends with her, she unadded me on snapchat first even though I wasn't going to. Well she unfollowed Bill on Instagram but Bill still follows her. Another reason, Bill deleted the post with her in it but she still has hers on her page. So what I think happened is he got sick of her shit and broke up with her. She got pissed...

So I've been thinking lately and I think I might want to be a software developer or computer programmer. I really like coding. I want to do something with technology. I love math. And most importantly I wouldn't have to talk to people on the daily. Talking to people is honestly tiring and frustrating. I can do it just fine, it just wears me down. So yeah my dream colleges would be Vanderbilt, Georgia Tech, or like Univesity of Florida, or something like that. And also, I won't admit this to anybody, but I really want to work for SpaceX. I would just really like to think apart of putting someone on Mars. And before you ask, I had a 98 in my AP physics class (the teacher said that's that's highest score he's ever had for that class) so ha.

So today I didn't go to school because my uncle died and I had to go to his funeral. I like to think of everyone at school as my people in my kingdom... more like I'm a dictator and I keep everyone in place. Yeah, I know what you're thinking "what the fuck, this girl is manipulative". Well to be honest every girl is manipulative whether you know it or not, they most definitely are. Only difference is, I'm open about it. BUT ANYWAY. So even though I don't want to admit it, I have feelings for Bill. Well today my friend Caroline sends me a snap of Bill and Jessie walking to lunch together. WHAT. THE. HELL. IM GONE FOR ONE DAY AND THEY'RE ACTING ALL BUDDY BUDDY AGAIN. I know I shouldn't be pissed. I'm just mad that I've been waiting for what seemed like forever for them to break up, but now they're being friends. What worries me the most is that the new guy Jessie is dating might be just a ploy to get Bill back together with her. Their rel...

So this girl and I are always competing for first in our class. She's the type of girl to get whatever she wants. To be quite frank, I'm not all that sure why. She's not rich and her family went bankrupt a few years back. She's a jerk to everyone and thinks she can get away with anything. Well as of a year ago, people started realizing this and hate her now. So yesterday, everyone in my history class starts talking about how smart I am and them they tell me I how they hope I get valedictorian. Idk it just really made my day. What really gets me is the fact that this has happened to me twice now. Where my class says they hate her and like me. Haha payback's a a bitch.